For the last couple of weeks I haven't been my happy go-lucky self. It's been a combination of things; sick kid, sick me, lack of sleep, too much to do ... basically life. With all that, I've felt like I've been running around in circles and getting nothing done. I've been down on myself, down on my ability to write and down on my ability to keep this dream alive. I've allowed stress and worry to steal the last couple of weeks from me and I'm a little grumpy with myself for letting it happen.
Today was an eye opening day. First, I got enough sleep. Thank the gods for that wonderful endeavour, it really does make everything easier. (A little free advice - never short change the sleep you get.) After that, Louise and I picked my daughter up from her sleep over and the three of us went to the farmer's market. What a great bit of fun that was. We picked up a few things, I introduced my daughter to 'german prunes' and we found a wonderful place for sheep's milk cheese (www.milkhouse.ca if you wanna check them out). Now, I know some of you are likely mocking me for getting excited over such a simple outing but, it was a really great day. A yummy home-made dinner and some family time finished off a wonderfully simple family day.
This evening, feeling restless as I often do, I went down to my usual hang-out (Second Cup on Baseline - fyi incredible people working there) to do a bit of work on one of my books. And guess what, I did absolutely no work. I ended up chattering with people and surprise, surprise a new photography gig may have just fallen into my lap. And as it did, I was reminded of something I've known but seem to occasionally forget - the universe (or whatever you believe) really wants you to succeed at what you love. Have faith that if you do what you love and approach it in a positive and open manner, the universe will provide. I got reminded of that today and I feel a bit stupid for forgetting and letting the monsters called Stress and Worry get to me. It was a good day.
I've also decided that 2 1/2 months of solid work have been wonderful, but the time has come for a much needed vacation. So, I'm going to run away for few days and play, rejuvenate and hopefully come back refreshed, focused and ready to play.
P.S.: Thank you to all who read this blog, I'm not sure who you are or if there are any of you, but I like to think someone reads these musing. Please feel free to comment, I'd love to hear from you. :D